Lies my parents told me.

The fact that our parents aren't gods has never been revolutionary to me.  well not for the past ten years.  the idea that the would lie or try to stop my progress is one that i would agree with if asked.  But my parents weren't really my parents.  I mean they taught me things and helped me define my moral and philosophical campus but they didn't do allot of parenting.  TV did that.  more specifically the sci-fi channel and its 03:00 infomercials.  I know way too much about dog food! but to think that my parent the good old boob tube was deceptive now that never crossed my mind.  Until now.  In the early nineties the quality of speculative fiction on television was for lack of a more eloquent word crap! the dialog suffered the acting was flat and the plot had no grounding in logic.  Think Johnny Mnemonic but pi times worse.  that's right 3.1415926535897932384626433832795028841971693993751 times worse that's a vary specific amount.  I used the situations and people as instructions for life.  Boy am i screwed up now.  It took me to watching it again to realise that I was basing my understanding of social dynamics on crappy emotionless acting.  no wonder I'm bad on stage the given the base examples of acting I have.    

In limbo

Iv been off the trail for a while and it's been a nice change but the trail calls and the sublime calm that is there draws me back. I hope all of you who are reading this hike at least one day if not more to know the other side of life. Money has been short and I hope sombody pushis my donate butten. Try to force a smile it may brghten your day.

100 miles

I hope to name those pictured here as soon as I can remember there names.  

Ive hiked over onehundred miles so far and I only have twelve thousand and sum odd left.  This should be a peace of cake, or pie, or icecreem, they all sound good at this point.  I would probubly be faster if I didnt stop and stay in towns for so many days each time. but I miss my technolegy on the trail and its just so nice to have it when i get into a town.  this picture was taken at Deleware watter gap in Penselvania thanks to Mothership.  

I Hike

At Mohican Outdour Center

pic thanks to John DeMarchi

One more time

In times of sorrow and of hardship.  There is a light shining in front of me.  Let it shine on till tomorrow so let it be.  If you are down and have no way to see the light, trust in thee.  There will be an answer so let it be.  There always will be an answer and that is enough for when the point of life is to search for this than the thing we can not forget is that it is out there.  I am not a perfict man far from it but I strive for perfection and I've been told that striving for is perfection.  So when someone says you cant do something that it is imposible tell that it is not becouse you are doing it right now.  I am self distructive and self sabitojing.  its not good but Im trying to change.  There will be an answer and it probobly will be lifted from a popculture reference.  I did it this blog is One year old!

I shaved

At least I still have my eyebrows

I know I've fallen off the grid lately and that was not entirely on purpose.  But now I can hopefully work on my self with the necessary focus.  Distractions I have in abundance but with this time away I have faced allot of fears and now the day is dawning bright!

Buddhist Chanting

This saved me from a panic attack.